yes. Hello my adoring fans who no doubt think I'm dead.....I'm not, my computer crashed. AGAIN. and yes, all the tragic, tragic...ness in my life has prevented me from updating.

School started again, and it's really boring I wish it would just die. Oh, and the teacher's might go on strike since they didn't get any fair contracts, or actually they are in the process of "negotiating" for new contracts..

I have a short attention span so I think I'll go right now and change something or other....ta ta

Did I tell you all that My computer's hard drive crashed? yes? well, It's fixed now and all my data is lost. *cries* All of it!! it's gone, never to be retrieved again.

The diagnostic for my computer was that the hard drive was bad, so thy had to replace it with a new one, and even though this hard drive is better then the one I had before, I still miss my old data. All my music videos are gone and the pictures I had all went down the drain. That's three years of downloading in the trash.

I'm pretty upset, and everytime I try to upload something my computer keeps going in berserk mode. It's horrible. I'm depressing myself, I'm gonna go.

Hello people! I'm finally back from the Philippines! Well....you know, I got back from it on Wednesday, but I couldn't update cause my computer's hard drive crashed.(that and Jet-Lag.Yeck) and I have soo much to say that it'll talk me a while to actually saying it All My childhood friends are guys, just to let you know. They've all grown up to be really really cute . I've forgotten how to speak to them though, since I haven't been there in 11 years.

They're all really shy at first. And it made me feel really bad because they remembered everything about me and I couldn't even remember they're names. Well....I could, but it wall all fuzzy until my cousins started talking to me about them.

My cousins all look really old. I'm the second oldest in all of my cousins on my mother's side. the oldest is seventeen going on eighteen, five months older than me, then there's her brother who's thirteen. He looks older and then it all goes downhill from there. I had a really really good time there, and if you ask me the two and a half weeks that we spent there were entirely too short.

I want to go back there now!

A part of me keeps telling me that that is where I feel most at home at. But the second part of me keeps insisting that we stay here because I've lived here longer and that it would be much easiser then going there with all the poverty.

Everything is so cheap there, it's great. It's 56 pesos for one American Dollar. Which was great because you could get armloads of stuff for very little money.

I'll tell you the rest later, my neck hurts from bending over too much. Bye bye

I'm in class right now people. I'm getting paraniod

The teacher keeps walking by and I'm afriad that she'll see me doing something I'm not supposed to be doing.

Gack! geez. more paranioa. I keep looking up every two seconds to see if she's coming in this directiong.

Bad. I have to go before I die of paranoia. Bye

And one and two and three.

Cry.

Heh, I have this sudden urge to go watch the Swan Princess now. Only I haven't watched that in, like....forever.

It's kinda odd how I know the words to that thing. Yeah, Really weired.

I looked up my name today in Dictionary.com.

It says that I'm a Wild and whistling swan.

.......I didn't even know that swans could whistle..they can't, can they?

*gasp*----!!!

but, that means,

*tragic gasp* my entire LIFE was a lie!

okay, so no it wasn't, ignore me, I just drank a mocha Frappuccino and I'm perky. (yum)

How that relevates to a swan whistling, I have no clue. But it's fun!

before you all run away screaming at the extreme randomness of it all, just listen to this.

........er....I just..kinda lost my train of thought there, no, seriously.

And Frankly I don't know if iy'll get back on track.

why do people say that?  "frankly"

who is this "frank" you speak of?

If your wondering, yes, I have just come to terms with my insanity. And Yes, I will marry your dog.

oh, wait no I won't.

er. I think I'm becoming more mentally unhinged then I already am. is that a good thing or a bad thing? Frankly I don't care.

There's that word again. "Frankly"

Who was this frank person, and why do people say that?

Dun Dun Duuuun!! *dramatic drum role*

I had a weird dream last night.

It went something like,

Talking hat: So, will you be able to kill all these rebel mence in one night?

demon me: I shall make trophies of their spines!

Talking hat: But you will not be able to since your partner is dead.

Me: Heh! he was just a filthy human! But I do feel rage on behalf of his death. and mourning. ......I feel the need to act out more acts of violence.

Talking hat: like what?

Me: like sitting there, in that corner and willing my enemy to suffer a heart attack.

Talking hat: *gasp* you're Insane!!

Me: yep! shall now go off and kill the entire population of earth and then go around prancing in fields of imaginary daises. And then I'll go find some cheese.

...........and that's when i woke up.

yes, Insanity is in every point in my life, or it could be just a phase. I think it's a phase. yep.

I shall see you. I shall now go shoot my evil twin sister. *nods* free the world from evil!!